Sometimes I wonder why are you all still alive, and why were you even born. And why don't your parents (or you, yourself) do anything to save you from this state of mind. Like, consult a psychiatrist, or such. I remember my first coming to /a/, I thought it's just an imageboard like most boards of 2chan... but then I realized the self-sufficient 'we are in denial' nature of /a/. It's a bit scary but fun to watch... except the fact that either your behaviour is just a play or you've got serious problems with socialization.