I'd like to walk you through my average valentine's /a/non,
To start my day I wake up at 6AM and go shopping for valentine's day things, flowers, candy, and sometimes the occasional 'thoughtful' gift that catches my eye. After spending about 100-150 dollars on this stuff, I immediately rush home, label them carefully, and then go to work. Work is especially difficult today, because I can't focus or sit still I'm so excited about tonight! All of my co-workers see my feverish fidgeting and think "wow, he probably has a hot date this evening, what a lucky guy!" Aren't I though? Who else has so many valentine's waiting for them at home? 4:20, I begin to wonder if they'll notice if I sneak out early, And then I make my move, I make a beeline for the front door, someone calls out to me, but...too late! I've escaped into the frosty parking lot and i run to my car. Zooming home at 70mph, I arrive and enter my house and there it all is.....I can see she left me sweet mementos and cards, i leaf through the cards. Looks like she really outdid herself this year Hisui. Proceeding immediately into the kitchen, as I know what's there, I can feel the warmth coming out and almost hear her though the door. My heart pace quickens despite myself and then I turn into the tiled wonderland...
It's dark, I see the poptart's sitting in the toaster and the wine sitting next to a tall glass.
I feel something break inside me and sob, just sink to the floor and sob, i reach for the bottle and fall, unable to get to it. After the tears have abated, i take a few deep rattling breaths and a few more tries gets me to the bottle, about half a bottle later I feel better and more composed. Then i find my way to the bathroom, feeling along the cold wall, and in the medicine chest is just what i was looking for, my sleeping pills. There's just enough left, they go done smooth with the other half-bottle of wine.
I can already hear Hisui calling me.