But that doesn't matter, I've been the same, and, sometimes, I'm like that, I don't know what I should do, or I just don't care, when the things I should do are right in front of my eyes.
I think she's so unmotivated because of her past. She loves drawing yaoi doujins, but when she did one when she was on high school, the thing turned bad, she hurted someone a lot, and she also got hurt. And she didn't hurt just a guy, she hurted the guy she (more or less, at that age you can't be shure) loved. She thinks that everything she does can hurt someone, but there is Sasahara, to help her continue with her life, to make her cheer up, and I would love to be in love with someone who I can help a lot.