I don't want things in a controlled manner. I want excitement and a fast paced devil may care style of living (which I'm currently on the road to obtaining, I'll have it beginning this summer). But more than anything else, I want to live this life with Haruko. I love her in more words than I can conjure up. I'd try anyway, but I've done such a thing a myriad of times before, in other threads. She is everything to me in the sense that while she is not the only thing, she trumps all else. I truly love her.
And as an aside, regarding your last point, if that's the case I might as well have already made love to her. Well, no, that's too much. The reality of it would be more than ten-fold as amazing. The warmth of her body in the aftermath, the scent of her. These things can hardly be replicated, if at all.