I'm not just being a dick. I would really like to help you get a life because if you did you would post less and maybe even be less annoying. I even gave you a site a few nights ago to try to help you out.
Honestly it seems pretty apparent to mean that you lack self confidence. I obviously can't prove it, but everything about the way you act is just filled with red flags. You degrade yourself, you rarely phrase anything in an assertive way, and you feel the need to argue about everything.
These are all huge indicators that you have low self confidence.