Probably replying to pasta+random email, but hey.
In the time it took to find this "perfect" person, I would have experienced a hell of a lot of annoyance, disappointment, rage, impatience, frustration, and so on and so forth. To what end? A mediocre partner and possibly eventually a married life filled with obligations where you have to work, pulled around by the nose with a chain held by other people. High effort, low reward.
Compare this to plunging through a vast trove of anime and manga ripe for the picking, all for free, with not a soul constraining your time or your lifestyle whatsoever. No obligation, low effort, high reward.>>10499001
I'll put money on you continuing to live like this as long as you can support yourself, since you wouldn't have dug yourself into a hole like that if you weren't enjoying it at least a moderate amount.