After a positively robotic childhood in which I did not understand the concept of happiness or contentment, I've awoken into a robotic adulthood where I am the most average person ever to live, everything is expected of me and nothing is given to me. Not respect, or time, or love, or anything; an entire life full of I've managed to fall in love once, but I lost her, it felt like I was losing her since the begginning because I was an unfeeling robot that couldn't care for her or understand her "real person" problems. I lost her, but every 20 year old guy loses a girl, the most hurtful thing ever to happen to me is like the rest of my life; carbon copy, worthless, not worthy of even the slightest consideration for my non-existent robot feelings. "It happens to everyone".
I'm too perfect of a little robot to fall for any of the usual traps of individuality, I know nothing I do will make me special or cause anyone to remember me. As I get older I lose more energy to accomplish anything, I'm becoming a loser who has done nothing with his life because he isn't "anyone". The days are becoming increasingly rote at my low paying job.
I cling to the internet because it makes me feel like I'm different from other people.